Sharpener's callin' me again
Tryin' to turn it into some
Thing I can draw into my skin
Make it a picture that I'll love
Insert something that I wish
I could get in the bath and scrub right off
Why am I ashamed to look the way I do?
All 'cause an escape to me was just a sharpener to you
Big old pill to inch around
There's no copping out this time
Tried my best to get it down (Get, get, get, get it down)
Sometimes seems like I'm still young
And lookin' at the boy across the sink
Thinking "What the hell have you just done?" ("What the hell have you just done?")
Why am I ashamеd to look the way I do?
All 'cause an escapе to me was just a sharpener to you
Why am I afraid of things I let inside my room?
Just wanted some company, broke the sharpener in two
You say, why am I like this?
You mean, why am I stupid?
Guess you know you're not tryin' to fix this
You mean, why am I like this?
You say, why am I selfish?
Guess you know, honey, you can't help it
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The themes of this song revolve around self-destructive coping mechanisms, and the addictive nature of them (“Sharpener’s callin' me again”), without seeing any other ways out. Robin also sings about the stigma that revolves around self-harm scars and body dysmorphia in general, linking back into the themes of self-hatred (“Why am I ashamed to look the way I do?”). He highlights the lack of understanding from people who try to address the problem from a neurotypical standpoint (“All ‘cause an escape to me was just a sharpener to you”).
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